Singing, "It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life for me, and I'm feeling good". As I woke this morning to my cats meowing because they knew it was time to eat, I fed them, opened the blinds, asked Alexa what the temperature was and felt a little offended when she didn't say or at least sing Happy Birthday to me. I mean she should know me by now seeing as though I talk to her every single day. Gotta research the newer versions because that is just unacceptable!
Once I got over that minor setback I spent a little time talking with God. Thankful for the past year that has shown me so much, tested me in ways I would have never imagined and pushed me closer and closer towards my dreams, all of which have brought me to the exact place that I am in today. Trusting in Him to direct my path to lead me to what is next. Reflection is a huge part of my life as it allows me to adjust as needed and forever remain thankful. Make changes to anything that doesn't naturally flow and allowing myself to acknowledge that I deserve all the good that has come my way and all that is to come.
I remember the days of saying, 'I can't wait until I'm finally 21 and grown'. Not sure I knew what I was wishing for, because who wishes to be an adult these days?! Sure I was younger, I could eat whatever I wanted and never gain a pound, I had no grey hairs, my back didn't ache when the fall months rolled around and my knees didn't pop when I bent down to pick up something. I will always hear my mothers voice when she would say, 'Just keep living'. I had no idea what that meant but I do now. As I am blessed to continue dancing around the sun I wouldn't change a thing. The older and older I get the more I learn to appreciate the process. Embrace the grey hairs, after I dye them, watch what I eat on most days and allow the natural progression to simply do it's thang.
For this 20th post of 2020, I not only celebrate today because it's my day of birth, it is also the day I started my blog two years ago. I can't have anything less than a huge smile on my face. I am at times overwhelmed with happiness as this journey continues forward. Wondering what was next for me, what my purpose was and when I would see it. This is my next!
As I prepare to do this 48th dance around the sun I realize just how much I trust in my own ability to do great things because I believe that I can. Accepting that this passion of mine is more than a fleeting notion and there is no stopping me now is the icing on the cake. The flood gates have opened. I've learned to be myself on another level and realize that I rock with myself 1000%. Like a fine wine, I'm only getting better with time.
In closing, I am thankful for the lows that brought me to the highs and mindful of the highs that humble me enough to remember the lows.
AJ writes & blogs from her home in Indiana. You can also find her work as a contributing writer at www.groovmagazine.com
"This is how you do it; you sit down at the keyboard and you put one word after another until it's done. It's that easy, and that hard." -Neil Gaiman