Thoughts In My Head

Imagine going non-stop down a busy road with no end in sight.  This is how my mind works.  It never stops thinking, wondering, imagining, hoping, longing, wishing and praying.  

I appreciate the gift of thought, however, at times it can prove to be a bit overwhelming, so I have to literally force myself to stop and just be.  Being one within myself is calming to my spirit, it allows me to relax and turn off my brain which as a writer I am learning to do with great ease without feeling as if I have failed.

Just be... Existing in the present moment with full awareness, without trying to control outcomes, analyze, or judge the experience.

With that being said... I've been twirling lots of thoughts in my head.  Ideas for my first book, which started quite a few years prior.  I am my own timeline, there is no rush or need to prove myself to anyone, but me.  Projects that I want to jump into inside my home, which, by the way are also never ending.  It creates a sense of happiness only a DIYer' would understand.  The changes I will make in my garden this year knowing the more flower beds I add the more maintenance I will have to deal with.  Hobbies are work but when you truly love it, the work turns into passion.

As I continue to pull inspiration from others and continue on my daily walk through life I realize how much of a true blessing it is to feel anything really.  To have thoughts that consume me, ideas that change like the wind and thoughts that take over as if I have to get it all done immediately.  Some of those 'have to get it done right now ideas' have turned into pretty amazing projects might I add.

Although my thoughts are quite loud I have a level of peace that is unfazed by the noise.  

​~AJ 💡